The worst thing is to waste your life on nothing

Posted on 2026.01.27

I'm tired of being stuck in the same cycle over and over again. breaking free from this modern, capitalistic, biological prison has been taking a toll over my health because I know damn well it's a matter of time before everything repeats again. I can see my future life from years away, and why can't I ? I've been seeing them everywhere, so frustrated and so hopeless as they drink from the salty sea that will NEVER satisfy them and NEVER have enough. I can see myself in them but I know I'm more of a sperg than them and probably won't survive in this wild jungle. I have nothing but one choice but I keep shooting myself like an idiot.

My parents have hope in me yet they don't know what I go through but sometimes I just feel like I'm a pussy who just can't man up enough. I know damn well that if I fall everything will backfire on me and I will be a pathetic laughing stock who offer no benefit to the world and be nothing but a frustrated, hopeless salty water drinker !. But man does the salt taste so fucking good !.

I know damn well that I can't escape this prison now so I think but I'm just gonna try to survive and looking away for this disgusting world filled with these weird ass people and look up to role-models I think are amazing (I've done that last year so why not ?) and change my identity a little bit (people last year used to call me a smart man so I just did what they would expect me to do) because that shit can really change the social brain.

The funny thing is : I know I will tighten the sphincter and decrease the duration but hopelessness is not an option, as I don't want to get back to that fucking dungeon !. ← Back to main page